breath no more

.

I know the difference,

Between myself and my reflection.

I just can´t help but to wonder,

Which of us do you love.

fin.

the butterfly effect

"cuba cakap apa dia, kau simpan2 pun tak guna." kataku.

dia cuma senyum meleret tanda bahagia. aku dah dapat agak cuma belum pasti.

cubaan pertama.

"kau dengan bunga2 macam mana?"

dia. cuma senyum. 

"ade contact tak? jumpe2 ke?"

senyuman makin lebar. senyuman bermakna. BANG! sasaran menengena!

dan perbualan seterus nya .... menjelas kan coretan coretan kebahagiaan. bahagiamu. bahagiaku. cuma apa yang aku pasti aku katakan waktu tu....

"manusia boleh berubah. tapi manusia juga boleh berubah lagi dan lagi dan lagi."

aku risau. sebab dia pernah tingalkan kau walaupun sebagai teman. mungkin kini kembali. mungkin dia akan pergi lagi. but hey, life is about taking a risk. a chance. you'll never know what comes ahead. mungkin. mungkin in orangnya. mungkin finally, it is worth the wait. mungkin.

it doesn't matter whether black or white. whats matter is that you love each other.

entah lah. 

kebahagiaan yang aku cari, mungkin cuma wujud dalam mimpi dan bukan realiti . 

aku tak salah kan sesiapa. 

tapi itu aku. 

bukan kamu. kan? :)

fin.

p/s: The butterfly effect is a term used in Chaos Theory to describe how tiny variations can affect giant systems, and complex systems, like weather patterns. (wisegeek.com). what im trying to say here is that how small movements, gestures, stares, talks and stuff can affect the way that we think, we feel. or shall i say...... the beginning of love. people says that if it less that 3 months, it is called crush. if you exceed, than maybe its love.. 

oh-so-unproductive-day

1. it was rain. rain so heavily that i decide not to do anything right now.

2. yet, i still typing while watching csi and my cat which just enter the house. and also checking the Facebook, twitter and tumbler.( this is what we call, let me see... multitasking. get it?)

3. i had made chicken grilled for lunch and every time i cook anything, there will be something wrong with my tummy. (please blame it on the salt and pepper)

4. i have report to finish, and a date with girlfriend tomorrow. which means i have a lot to do today but its already 4.30pm.

5. should i or shouldn't i cook for dinner tonight?

fin.

am i bad?

it is easy to break someone's heart unintentionally ,

but the pain you gonna cause, may sometimes stay forever.

forgive me.

fin.

something something

how good do you have to be, to be considered as a 'good person'? 

how nice do you have to be , to be considered as a 'nice person'? 

  

but

how bad you got to be, to be considered as a 'bad person' ?

none. even if you are good people and nice people, bad gossips will make people think that is what you are.